GAME DEV DIARIES
Season 1 Episode 7
Date: 13th October, 2020
TITLE: Is that what it looks like?
Back in college and it has been nothing but a challenge to tackle as I'm trying to work on my game and managing school. Plus it's good to look at the bored and not feel consumed by the black abyss of despair anymore.
I thank my passion
It was good to see friends after a long stay in lockdown and all. I heard all stories and the adventures people had and the moment my ears laid on that, something had started clicking in my head.
And the clicking got louder when they asked what I had been doing during the lockdown period. I barely had ten seconds and questions came running. And every question had that familiar pattern running through them.
It's not first time the questions have been asked but it felt it was the first time I even heard them.
Behold the Beholding
Every time I walk to school and back I keep hearing their voices asking the questions and if I were wearing headphones, I would have been oblivious of the environment around me. I hear them every minute and I keep answering them differently but with the same pattern
"What if....?" the ones with fear
"Can you manage....?" the demotivating ones
"Is that all?" The ones that expected much more
"Why not...?" The ones throw you off your boat
These were the questions and many others that kept voicing out in my head. I don't really mean those people were bad and hate me in any way. It's just a result of when people don't understand what the heck you're doing and don't understand your schedule or how you think.
I still find it hard to explain to people all that I did and when your choices and priorities are put to question for the first time, I find it interesting. After this experience it made me realize that a lot of people can really talk about the crazy, think about the crazy, share the message about doing the crazy but when someone has to do the crazy, experience says it all.
The answer: 90% Negative
It made me realize what kind of crazy thing I'm doing is really crazy. But this time when I think about it, I just feel happier and more motivated when questions come running or when people tease me.
Answering the questions are not easy. Not because I don't have the right answer because I definitely do most of the time. I'm having a hard time shortening the answers as much as possible because I don't want to bore people and I want to pick the right words and phrases that will do more than answer the question. The art of pitching hahaha... this is fun.
And I'm still bad at it..ish
Well, I'll end here for now. I'm tired and happy I got to write this. I want to start upgrading my portfolio with digital art so I'll posting once things get rolling.
For now, bye and thanks for reading.
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