Game Dev Diaries Season 2 Episode 6

 

GAME DEV DIARIES

Season 2 Episode 6

Date: 29th January, 2021
TITLE: How far can you go?

 The Universe still mocks me huh? After all the effort I put and you can't let me just get this over with? This is definitely not over. There's no way you can hurt me like this.

 And here he goes again

 The last two week have been awful. After spending so much time we can't accomplish the final task. How do you expect some to  move like this? Imagine having prepared your best recipe in a huge pot for everyone to taste but you got nothing to put the food on.

 Apparently the plates break before you use them and you don't know why. It's not like you saw the cracks in the first place. Think it's easy to just abandon that meal and start preparing for the next one? Sure you can start, it's easy very easy.

Just get yourself started for another meal and leave the other one alone. Now let's see if you can move on which obviously will not happen the way you envisioned the thing in your head. 

 I'm hungry, so I'm doing food analogy.

 Did he use that word right?

 But yeah, when I had introduced the game for people to see things didn't go entirely planned, I've been searching for solutions but nothing. It somehow threw me out of any other plans I had to do after the game because whether I ignore the fact or try to get over it, I'm not done.

 So I am a little sad that this is happening. However I still have to keep doing what I can. It's more depressing if I just abandon this because one thing is not moving well. And I can't just abandon my hard work like that. It deserves a little more.

 I haven't tasted coconut water(Or is it milk?) before. I've held the fruit before but I could break that thing. Sadly I had left it. Not because I gave up, but I couldn't afford to buy it from the store and breaking would have put me in troubles I'd rather not experience. 

 Food again?

 I can't stay locked up in one place forever. One thing I learnt is the ability to switch a response to any given problem. Right now I could have just dropped everything. Just given up and maybe slammed a bunch of games and gone back to being an aimless human being saying

"I'm completely hopeless." But then again. It's not the first time a case happened like this.

 I remember during my time at secondary school. I was with 8 other classmates trying to make a website for our school. It started out on a good pace for a short time. A year later and we were down to 3. the rest lost interest, had other priorities, found it too difficult and many other reasons. I was one of the last 3.

 When we were done. Okay, it was actually done, we just reached our limits in improving the thing. It was even something that could be launched. But at the last minute we failed to launch it. After trying and trying and struggling. We failed to launch the website.

 

 I'm still proud of that website. because I learned a simple trick to learn code. Especially the C languages. And many other things from it that I still use to this day. But even without those tricks and solutions I'm still proud of that website. 

That unconditional love

 So how far can I go? I don't know because I've never really stopped before. And especially when I've not declared that I've finished. Even if failures happen, I don't stop even though I feel like it. The joy of that coconut juice never leaves my my taste buds and the fact that others have enjoyed it too, makes me even more fired up to crack it open and drain it dry.