Game Dev Diaries Season 2 Episode 3

 GAME DEV DIARIES

Season 2 Episode 3
Date: 9th January, 2021
TITLE: Games, games and more games

 Been trying to get this tab system working but I keep messing up. Doesn't the universe like.. .I don't know, now that I have a bunch of game ideas to be created? I really losing my mind here it's so funny. I've got story to write and art to design and this menu won't let me be. This is so funny and silly you know. 

SMH...

 I wonder if other Devs go through this? Stupid question, I know I'm just being emotional here. I still can't believe the amount of work goes into making a game. Just thinking about where I would have been by now if I were making one of my dream games.

 

 Maybe I would have finished making my first dream game. After 6 years probably. To be honest I think anyone can finish there huge and massive dream games. I sure would have loved to make my FPS game and spend the time making it work. But I would have been defeated.

Defeated by the learning process

 I don't think the problem would have been technical. I don't even know the criteria of been called an expert in Indie Game Dev (Hmmm... maybe in terms of success). But in the emotional and mental aspect. I think it would have been  impossible to finish my FPS game.

 Apparently I've come to realize that when you're trying to make your first game. Because your obviously trying to do it for most likely, the general "Success", you know the fame and fortune blah blah blah… especially if your just starting you won't learn anything at all.

 Yes you will know how to use the game engine(Somehow). You will place buildings, grass, structures and trees where you think it will never be the right place. The coding will be done...No it won't you'll be copying and pasting whatever you feel is might spice things up. You won't even think of any other vital things you will need for that success you want.

Frantic like a freaking Squirrel

 In fact from what happened with my first dream game last year. I failed to do anything right and because I just wanted to make it so bad it kept shapeshifting in my head, I didn't want to learn neither practice properly. I didn't realize that I wasn't learning or making progress until I burned out. two weeks on a rest that was useless.

 Well I'm glad I've learnt my lesson. But eish … I still can't wait to finish this game already.